Future-Present Hope

From my devotions this morning… I did not write this. Instead, as happens so often in my devotional time, God had for me exactly what I needed to hear today. I bolded and underlined the sentence that struck right to my heart and filled it with Hope.


John 16:33: “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world” (NIV).

You may identify with the concept, “A mother is only as happy as her unhappiest child.” It is hard not to get dragged down by the struggles of your children. Jesus recognized this tendency and offers a solutionÑan eternal perspective. When you are certain about your future, you are better able to face the present. An eternal mindset will help you maintain a hope-filled perspective because our home is not of this world!

When you or your kids are suffering, remember that Christ has conquered the world, and one day we will be with Him. Until then, beware of desiring pleasure on this earth more than Christ. Take comfort in knowing that this life is temporary and let your pain lead you towards dependence on Him.

Remember that your home is not in this world, but in heaven.

Silliness of Sin

The silliness of sin comes not in the consequences that our sin deserves, but in the lack of thought or carelessness with which we regard those consequences.

If someone decides to do something dangerous, but they’ve weighed out the risks and consequences and then gone forward, that’s one thing. It may be a good or bad decision, but at least it was thought out. The consequences weren’t ignored, but instead deemed worthy of the risk/reward for the decision.

In sin, however, we decide to do what is dangerous and ignore the consequences and cost. In truth, if we thought about or took seriously the consequences of sin that are promised to come, we’d never make the decision to go forward with them. Scripture says this is foolishness.

This is the silliness of sin.

Frustration and Jesus

Feeling a lot of general anger and frustration today. It’s strange how some days one emotion seems so much stronger than others. Some days it’s sadness, some gratitude, today… frustration and anger.

I realized I hadn’t read the Bible in a couple days so I opened it up. I read the devotional that I was supposed to read yesterday. And it’s about perfect for that:

” BEING SEEN AND KNOWN Although she did not call out to him, Jesus saw the widow who had lost her son. How wonderful to be seen by the Son of God! Not only did He see her, but this verse says His heart went out to her. He connected with her suffering. What encouragement for us as parents. Jesus sees us, too, but not in a casual, indifferent way. He feels our pain and He knows our struggles. You can take comfort in knowing that as you walk the sometimes difficult and painful path of parenthood, His heart goes out to you as well. Remember that you are not alone. He is walking alongside you this very day. You are known and loved by the Son of God.”

With Luke 7:12-13:
As he approached the town gate, a dead person was being carried out—the only son of his mother, and she was a widow. And a large crowd from the town was with her. When the Lord saw her, his heart went out to her and he said, “Don’t cry.”

I’m still feeling frustrated and angry. But I’m not afraid they’ll overtake me now. I’m not alone.

Every Day

Every day hurts.
Every breath is difficult and restricted.
Every meal is small. And there are many less of them.
Every day my stomach is in knots.
Every day my head hurts.
Every day my jaw hurts.
Every morning is exhausting.
Every night is not restful.
Every dream is about you.
Every day my chest is constricted.
Every day my chest is so heavy.
Every day my heart hurts.
Every day without you.

A reverse look at the “Love Chapter”

Just my thoughts from this morning…
I read this passage recently and was shown and reminded of how far I’ve fallen short.
Today I read it as showing me what God is like and everything that the devil is against. The devil is working hard for the exact opposite of everything in this passage.

God is amazing. God is good. The devil is evil.
God is for us. The devil is against us. God is about love, reconciliation, grace and forgiveness. The devil is out for division, destruction, isolation, fear and all things negative.


Christmas Eve

I’m carrying such a heavy heart today. Stayed up all night wrapping presents on my own while Lori was horribly sick. I read the Christmas story with Lori and the kids this morning and as I think of each of our kids and the baby on the way with a heartbeat of 160+ bpm, I’m overwhelmed feeling loved by God. How amazing that he gave his Son. Laying that fragile baby in a manger knowing the sacrifice He would endure for me and every other person. I’m sitting here looking at the manger that Will and I built which has a blanket and a cutout of Jesus in it and the “Happy birthday crown” that each of us wears on our birthdays. I’m overwhelmed feeling grateful to Him and Jesus and crying out desperately for Him to ease Lori’s pain and come closer to me. I feel so loved and yet long so much to feel and know Him more closely, truly, fully. It’s just so amazing. Merry Christmas, God. Happy birthday, Jesus.


2013 in review

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